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=With The Samanas=

= The Assignment = To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel Siddhartha, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up gaming, because it's something I enjoy to do whenever I have free time.. and even when I don't have "time" I make time to play. It's something that's becoming an addiction so I thought it would be a good idea to attempt to not play, so here goes!

[[image:god_of_war_iii_706.jpg width="288" height="158" align="right"]]Getting Started
My first day of not playing was very hard on me. I became very bored and didn't want to talk much. Coming from a Roman Catholic family I don't go out very much, so gaming is my get away. At one point I literally sat in my room dazing off into space thinking about what "quest" I would be doing. To me, "the world tasted bitter. Life was pain" (14). The one thing I loved doing the most was now gone, I'm not sure how long I will be able to hold on. It's difficult to know my gaming system is right there and I can't play it. This is really difficult for me to do right now.

=Mid-Week= On normal days, I would come home and finish homework and then start playing but ever since I stopped playing I've been spending time with my family. I'm not sure how long I'll be able to hold back "Truly I was filled with longing," (17). The worst part is that my dad will come home and play with the speakers on really loud so I can hear it. I just began to grow tired with nothing else to do. I would either be mad or sad so in order to fill my time, I began knitting to distract myself. = By The End = Finally!! So I went through with my tormenting week (woohoo!). "To experience the peace of an empty heart" (14) was possibly the strangest and worst things I've ever done. I'm pretty sure playing so much isn't good for me but oh well. I did learn something out of this though, I can knit scarfs! Maybe someday that'll come in handy but for now I shall continue my addiction to gaming.



= Awakening =

"The world was beautiful, strange and mysterious" "Here was blue, here was yellow, here was green, sky and river, woods and mountains, all beautiful, all mysterious and enchanting" "It was no longer the magic of Mara, it was no more the veil of Maya, it was no longer meaningless and the chance diversities of the appearances of the world"
 * The Quotes:**


 * The Image:**


 * Analysis:** I drew this picture like this because in the book, Siddartha is finally noticing everything around him for the first time. The yin-yang i drew stands for how he finally found that "balance in his life." There's multiple colors blended in to show the mysteriousness and enchanting world, there is also the three colors Siddartha had mentioned as well; green, yellow, and blue. At the bottom of the drawing is grass, woods, and mountains. Then you can see the brilliant sun on one side mixed with warm colors. On the other side of the yin-yang you can find the moon, stars, and a raindrop. The raindrop is supposed to represent the river in one.

=Kamala= Name: Kamala


 * Location**: The Pleasure Grove


 * Eyes**: Dark brownish eyes


 * Hair**: Black


 * About me**: I am "bright, very sweet...clever and observant," and I have "black hair...a very clever face, a bright red mouth like a freshly cut [fig], artful eyebrows painted in a high arch, dark eyes...and a clear slender neck" above my "green and gold crown (51). I am the most [|beautiful woman] you will ever meet.


 * Hobbies/Profession**: I am a "well-known courtesan" (52). I love to walk around in the city in my free time and enjoy the nature.


 * Looking for**: A rich man "He must have, fine clothes, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse, and presents for kamla"(54). she only wanted a rich man.

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 * "Banana Pancakes" **

Can't you see that it's just raining? Ain't no need to go outside...

Baby, you hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep you From doing what you're supposed to. Waking up too early Maybe we #|can sleep in I'll make you banana pancakes Pretend like it's the weekend now

And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just raining? Ain't no need to go outside

But just maybe, laka #|ukulele Mommy made a baby Really don't mind the breakfast 'cause you're my little lady Lady, lady, love me 'cause I love to lay here lazy We could close the __[|curtains] __ Pretend like there's no world outside

And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just raining? Ain't no need to go outside

Ain't no need, ain't no need, mmm, mmm, Can't you see, can't you see? Rain all day, rain all night.

The telephone is singing Ringing It's too early Don't pick it up We don't need to we got everything We need right here And everything we need is enough Just so easy When the whole world fits inside of your arms Don't really need to pay attention to the __[|alarm] __ Wake up slow, yeah, wake up slow

Baby, you hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Waking up too early Maybe we #|can sleep in I'll make you banana pancakes Pretend like it's the weekend now

And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just raining? Ain't no need to go outside Ain't no need, ain't no need Rain all day and I really really, really don't mind Can't you see, can't you see? You gotta wake up slow "His sleep was deep and dreamless.. he had slept wonderfully!" (90 and 91)

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 * "Only The Ocean" **

 After all this time After all of these season After your own decision to go to the water for a reason It's only the ocean and you And all of this lines Will all be erased soon They go out with the tide And come back with the waves It's only the ocean and you

You don't want You don't wait You don't love but you don't hate You just roll over me And you pull me in

And this work is done And this cold is dry When this world's too much It will be only the ocean and me When these sails go up Mountanis fade away Stars come back I'm finally free It's only the ocean and me

You don't want You don't wait You don't love but you don't hate You just roll over me And you pull me in And you pull me in

You don't want You don't wait You don't love but you don't hate You just roll right over me And you pull me in

And you pull me in...

You just roll over me And you pull me in "He could love nothing and nobody" (94)

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 * "The River Of Dreams" **

In the middle of the night I go walking in my sleep From the mountains of faith To a river so deep I must be looking for something Something sacred I lost But the river is wide And it's too hard to cross

And even though I know the river is wide <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I walk down every evening and I stand on the shore <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">And try to cross to the opposite side <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">So I can finally find out what I've been looking for

<span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">In the middle of the night <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I go walking in my sleep <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Through the valley of fear <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">To a river so deep <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">And I've been searching for something <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Taken out of my soul <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Something I would never lose <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Something somebody stole

<span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I don't know why I go walking at night <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">But now I'm tired and I don't want to walk anymore <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I hope it doesn't take the rest of my life <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Until I find what it is that I've been looking for

<span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">In the middle of the night <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I go walking in my sleep <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Through the jungle of doubt <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">To a river so deep <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I know I'm searching for something <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Something so undefined <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">That it can only be seen <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">By the eyes of the blind <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">In the middle of the night

<span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I'm not sure about a life after this <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">God knows I've never been a spiritual man <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Baptized by the fire, I wade into the river <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">That runs to the promised land <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">In the middle of the night <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">I go walking in my sleep <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">Through the desert of truth <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">To the river so deep <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">We all end in the ocean <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">We all start in the streams <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">We're all carried along <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">By the river of dreams <span style="font-family: Verdana,Arial; font-size: 1em;">In the middle of the night

"He stopped at this river and stood hesitantly on the bank... there was no more purpose; there was nothing more than a deep, painful longing to shake off his whole confused dream, to spit out this stale wine, to make an end of this bitter, painful life." (88)

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"the years [pass] by... [and I] hardly [notice] their passing" (75)
 * Quote:**"The people of the world, the ordinary people, were still alien to him, just as he was apart from them." (75)

I go through the same routine everyday; 1. Attempt to get up 2. Get ready for school 3. Drink or eat something (preferably coffee) 4. Walk to my bus stop, which takes forever 5.Ride the bus for an hour to school 6. Listen to teachers and attempt to not fall asleep 7. Ride the bus for an hour to go home 8. Get home 9. Do homework 10. Sleep and repeat again tomorrow

The reason why I picked those quotes from Siddartha is because most of the time I feel as if I'm alone and invisible in this world. Of course I'm not but it feels like it. I tend to set myself apart most of the time not because I like to be alone (not all the time anyways) but because I think it's better to not get attached to anyone when you never know what can happen. I don't really have time to "socialize" as much as I used to but with this time I do think a lot which is ok i guess.