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=__ LOVE & ALMISH __= =__ By:Raylaja Waller __=

 It was a the end of fall and the begining of winter in Virginia. I was sitting in my little home with my mother, brothers , sister and pa when I told them I was leaving the Almish life. I planned on leaving since I was a young boy about 7 or 8 when I noticed their where so many things I could and couldn't do all because of the man above known as god feel that its a sin, and if I commit a sin of any kind I shall be shunt and will burn in hell with the devil himself who was suppose to be beneath me. I went up to mother, pa, and the rest of the family and said " Now yalls know I love yalls and their is nothing I would do to hurts yalls feelings , but" .. " Come on here boy just get to the point, theirs still two more lifts of wood you need to chop before dawn turns to dust and you wont have and light to finish your work" Pa said in an loud strick tone. " Well yall " I said whith a sigh... "I will be leaving tomorrow". Mother looked at me with a smile and said " well of course your leaving tomorrow, you and jimmy has to tame the cows and coops for Mr.Tom". I looked at mother and shook my head then did another sigh, " Naw mother I mean I'm Leaving for good ".

 Mother looked at my with a face of confussin, " Mother, pa, I'm leaving the Almish, and I wont be bcak unless its to visit yall but, since I will be shunt when jump the gate I may not visist only write you all some letters". Mother stud up and hugged me with tears running down her face crying in my ear, then she wisperd with a weap, " Whatever make you happy son I happy too". I hugged mother back and looked and my pa and all I saw was BLOOD SHOT RED ALL OVER HIS FACE. Pa was un-happy, very un-happy, pa face was so red it looked like a red pepper from the gardon. Next thing I know pa yells with rage " YOU LEAVE BOY DONT YOU EVER COME BACK, YOU GO HEAD NOW JUMP THAT GATE AND GET SHUNT AND BRING SHAME UPON THIS HERE FAMILY AND I PROMISE YOU WILL BURN IN HELL LIKE NO OTHA!!! ". With those words coming out of pa mouth I grabed my bags, I opened the door then I heard pa yell " YOU WILL NEVER FIND LOVE AND MARRY WITHOUT LIVING IN THE ALMISH, YOU WERE PUT HERE FOR ALMISH WOMEN TO MARRY YOU HERE ME BOY!!!!" I left out the house and slamed the door shut and headed to A'Chyah house up on the hill.

 A'Chyah was my friend, I mean not just and friend she was my best friend but most importantly she was my girl friend. I told A'Chyah I was leaving she hugged me and wished me good luck on my journey but she didn't come with me like I asked of her. "Give me time" she said but I just new their would never be time for her to join me. From A'Chayah House I walked down the hill and jumped the wooden gate. I looked behind me then looked ahead of me smiled and then I yelled " I AM FREE FROM THE ALMISH, I SHALL DO AS I PLEASES FROM NOW ON TELL FOR EVA ! "

 About a year later 100 miles away from the Almish community I was living in Charlottesville where I settled down into a home in a nice neighbor hood called Eagales Landing. I had been dating a young lady my age Name My'Sahni but me and A'Chyah wrote each other letters every week to keep in touch. A'Chyah still has my hart but My'Sahni has a part of it to.... My'Sahni and I met in a clothing store, I was looking for a new look and she had given it to me, and we have been together ever since. I still remember a year latter what my pa said to me " YOU WILL NEVER FIND LOVE AND MARRY WITHOUT LIVING IN THE ALMISH" but what he said from what im exsperiencing with My'Sahni is LIES.

 A'Chyah wrote me back today and what she said made me smile. It read " I will join you in Charlottesvill'e in time, when you really need me their by your side." That touched my heart but was she saying what she know I wanted to here or was she serious... I'm in love with both A'Chyah and My'Sahni but I don't know which one of them really loves me but only time will tell.

 It was a nice Monday morning and as usual I went out and ran my weekly earns. I go to the store, catch the bus to the post office and from their I walk about 5 blocks before I cross the rail road to get home. I was walking while reading a letter from A’Chyah when on the rail road I stopped and re-read a line that said “When you need me most I promise I will be right by your side.” Then a horn sounds and I turn to see bright yellow lights in my face then the horn sounds again, then BAM CRACK….

 I had gotten hit by the train, now I lay in the bed at UVA Hospital paralyzed from my waist down with a numerous bruises and scars all over my body. I wake up and look to the side of me to see My’Sahni right their holding my hand with her eyes all red like she haven’t slept in days. “How long have I been here?” I asked her with a little confusion. You been here for a week she said to me. “Did A’Chyah write me back? Did you read it? Did you tell her what happened to me?” I needed answers and I needed them now. My’Sahni Read to me what she wrote A’chyah about my accident, and then she handed me the letter A’Chyah wrote back. It hadn't been open. “It came today.” My’Sahni said. I opened it and read it with tears pouring down my face I read the words “ This would not have happened hadn’t you stayed in the Almish and not had been shunt. What will I do with a man that not only has been shunt but paralyzed from thy waist down? Kadar you knows I loves you, but now I love you no more.” Their it was in black and white A’chyah no longer loves me. Come to think of it she never did love me. She just told me what she knew I wanted to hear, not what she really felt. She told me that when I needed her most she was going to be here for me right by my side, and right now I needed her most and she not here, she told me she not coming….

 2 years has pasted since the accident and me and A’Chyah haven’t written each other since. I now use a wheel chair to move around from one place to another and when I cant reach something my dear fiancé My’Sahni helps me out. My’Sahni never left me in my time of need she stayed right their the whole way through it all. Not once has she given up on me and I really don’t think she ever will.

 Its now April 1st and I sent a letter inviting mother, pa and the rest of the family to the wedding on May 3rd. I never got a letter back to let me know if they where coming or not but I made sure to have them a special seat up front if they do. The wedding cake was vanilla on top, marvel in the middle and chocolate on the bottom. The colors for the wedding where pink and white, My’Sahni don’t like the color pink, but that was my mothers favorite color so she let it be the color in the wedding. We were having the wedding in a large field in Louisa Va. And everything was ready for the wedding.



 Its May 3rd, wedding day and the field was filling up. When the music started to play and My’Sahni family walked down the ails and took their seats and to my surprise so did mother, pa, my brothers and sister. After the wedding we had the reception down the field and something I never thought I would hear is pa come out his lip and say “ son I proud of you, I never knew that you would actually prove me wrong and find love outside the Amish but you did it, and I wish you and your wife the best.” Pa hugged me and I hugged him back…

 A couple months later I found out that A’Chyah had been shunt for sneaking in a non Almish into the community and receiving electronic devices. They kicked her out and some how she found me and asked for help, she claims she really needed me. I looked at A’Chyah and told her “ In my time of need you never came to help me and I really needed your help, but you just left me, and now you want me to help you?, here is 50 cents, theirs a pay phone about 2 blocks away and here is the number to the salvation army, make sure you hold the metal piece down before it goes to voice mail or else your going to loose your 50 cents. Have a nice life A’Chyah. And remember to treat people the way you want to be treated . “

