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=Keyri Lopez Scrapbook=

=With the Samanas=

The Assingment
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel, Siddhartha, try to reach enlightment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I choose to give up watching movies on YouTube, because is something I really like to do anytime.

=Beginning of the week=

===For the the first two days it was difficult to no think about watching movies in YouTube. It was challenging because when I gave up watching movies on YouTube I had not finished a movie that I had been watching. It was a lot of a temtation to not use my Study Hall and watch movies, instead of doing something productive. Despite the difficulty I knew I had a goal to accomplish just like Siddhartha's, " One goal was Siddhartha's and only one: to become empty... ready for a miracle with thought liberated from ego: that was his goal" (Hesse 7). Like Siddhartha I also wanted to test myself and become "liberated" from technology that effected my focus from my studies and family. I knew that the challenge was going to be difficult, but I knew that I could do it.=== = = = =

=Middle of the week= ===As the week continued I was temted by other people and factors at home. During the weekend my sister likes to use her Ipod and watch television shows on YouTube. Once I woke up in the morning and my sister was watching a series from a televison show that we both really like. I was very tempted to go and sit next to her and also watch the series, but I remembered my goal and instead went to the living room and eat breakfast. Many activities prevented me from using my Ipod to watch movies, such as going to church and Youth Group in the evening. Different school related activities also kept me from giving in, such as doing homework at school and at home. I wanted very much to finish watching the movie I had started, but I had my goal present in my head the whole time. Therefore I left my Ipod at home instead to bringing it to school, and wanting to use it during my spare time. Siddhartha to reach enlightment, " He took the path of liberation from self through meditaion... but once again felt the torment of the cycle that was imposed on him" (8-9). I felt that I was goint through a similar cycle as well, I tried very hard to stay away from my Ipod, but felt that when I saw it I was temted to use it; and suffered for not being able to do so.===

= = =End of the week=

=== By the end of the week I was satisfied that I was able to fully accomplish my goal. Although I felt that I had a lot of help to not give in and use my Ipod to go on YouTube. Each day of the whole week I had a lot of homework or activities outside from school that kept me busy, and distracted me from using my Ipod and going on YouTube. Eventhough I really wanted to finish the movie I had started, I kept my goal in mind and force myself to not give in. Siddhartha learned that he was also capable of freeing himself from ego, at the end, " Siddhartha sat up straight and learned to converse his breath, learned how to make do with just a little breath, learned how to cut off his breath" (8). Siddhartha learned to master his breathing, and I learned how to deal with the temtation to watch movies on YouTube that distracted me from hanging out with my siblings and finishing homework. Siddhartha completed his goal and learned that through meditation he was able to reach enlightment. He understood that suffering physically and emotionaly were going to be factors that tempted him from giving up his goal of liberating himself from ego. I learned that it was going to be challenging at first to not go on YouTube and watch movies, but that if I kept my goal in mind I was going to be able to accomplish it. I am Thankful for the things that help me not give in, such as being busy at church and with school work.=== = = = =

=Awakening=



===Siddhartha reached awakening when he talked to the Buddha, and his friend, Govinda stayed behind to follow the Buddha's teachings. Siddhartha realize that after talking with the Buddha he had left his friend and his life behind, and as he walked slowly to him, awakening looked like "... the world was strange and puzzling! Here was blue, here was yellow, here was green; sky flowed, and river; forest jutted upward, and mountains; everything beautiful, everything puzzling and magical..." (22). I chose to draw mountains, a river, a forest, Siddhartha living his father, kingdom, and teachers behind because, " ... it was no longer for the sorcery of Mara, it was no longer the vail of Maya, it was no longer meaningless, accidental multiplicity of the world of phenomena, contemptible to the philosophical Brahman, who scorns multiplicity and seeks unity" (22). Siddhartha came to look at the world differently and realize how beautiful it was, what is was full of, " And at once he set out again, beginning to walk swiftly and impatiently, no longer homeward, no longer to his ather, no longer looking back" (23). Siddhartha wanted to take a new path and begin his life again, not being recognize for a Brahman or an ascetic, but for himself; Siddhartha. He set to find who he really was, and opened to all the beauties around him; full of vivid colors and life. Siddhartha in that moment of awakening he became a new person and the world around him was the most precious thing he had ever seen. ===

= Kamala =


 * Name ** : Kamala


 * Location ** : I live in a palace with a nice grove (29)


 * Eyes ** : I have dark, clever, and alert eyes with high arches above them (28)


 * Hair ** : My hair is black high-piled (28)

===Kamala is very appealing to Siddhartha because she is so beautiful and her beauty is covered with cleverness. As Siddhartha sees Kamala with her servants, " He saw beneath high-piled black hair a very fair, very soft, very clever face, bright-red lips like newly opened fig, eyebrows well teneded and painted in the form of high arches, dark eyes clever and alert, a long fair neck emerging from the green-and-gold outer garment, fair hands at rest, long and narrow, with wide gold bracelets at the wrist" (28). I am very beautiful and very smart, many men praise me and like to spend time with me. I like to have fun and enjoy life's beauties. I live in a very beautiful place that brings out my beauty even more.===
 * About Me**

**Hobbies / Profession** ===I enjoy teaching people about love both physically and emotionally. (30) I am an expert in love, I give advices to the people who come to me. I try to cheer them up a fill their hearts with contempt. I enjoy teaching others about love, and how to find it. If you are an individual who is struggleing with love problems, I would be delighted to help and give advices. I am always here to help make your life happier by finding a new meaning to your life through love.===

**Looking For** ===I am looking for a man that has fine clothes, good-looking shoes, and a lot of money to buy me gifts. (30) I want a men who is able to bring me wealth, and spend the rest of it's life beside me. A men who is not only handsome, but also very smart and clever. A men who can teach me new things about life, while I teach him about love and it's beauties. In this person I want to find a new form of happiness and create a family with him.===

=Samsara=

11) Go to sleep


=Analysis= ===Each day my life is a blessing. I wake up around 6:45 or 7:30 each weekday. Usually, my sister and I take turns to see who is going get my brother ready for school and take him to the bus stop. After taking my brother to the bus stop I rush to the house and get ready for school. I eat breakfast that my mom was kind to prepare and rush outside to the bus stop. When I get to school I attend to my classes, eat lunch, go back to class, and finally come back home. At home I eat dinner and then do my homework until bed time. Finally I go to sleep, and follow the same routine each weekday. I feel that during the school year I barely take time to appreciate my life and the things that are given to me. I feel that time goes by so fast, and that I don't take time to appreciate my family, my life, and the beauties of the world such as nature. I am mostly focused at school, and do not look at my surroundings. Like Siddhartha I feel that, " The world had entrapped him, pleasure, covetousness, indolence, and finally even the vice he always despised and scorned most, as being the most foolish: avarice" (42). I feel that I am very much focus on material things, such as doing the best in school and working hard to get good grades. I am very thankful to have the opportunity to have an education, but sometimes I get caught up in school work and do not spend time with my family, or do other things besides homework. When I get breaks from school I am so thankful, because that is when I am able to take a break and focus more on my family and spend time with them. During this breaks I realize the blessings that I have, and appreciate each day that God has given to me to live. I am blessed because I learn many things in school, but also thankful to have breaks from it. Siddhartha left the world that was consuming him each day, and left to begin again a new life. I too during the school vacations and breaks leave the pressures from my daily routine and begin each day with a better view on the world and life. ===

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Analysis:
===After leaving the town Siddhartha went into the forest, trying to get away from a place that had brought him a lot of uncomfort and led him to rely on the thing he hated the most; becoming very close with the material world. Siddhartha came across the river he had cross before to go to the town, he felt a joy he had not felt before. The river calmed Siddhartha and he wanted to stay and observe the river, he wanted to, " turn away from the things/ That break your heart" (Flood). Siddhartha felt a " profound love for that flowing water" ( Hesse). After feeling dead from all the things he experienced in the town, he is able to feel alive again through the presence of the river, and the comfort it brings him, Siddhartha's love for the river makes him keep going with his life after having gone through many stuggles with himself and the material world. Just for the river Siddhartha is willing to keep going, " Just for You" ( Flood).===

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Analysis:
===I really like the melody, peace, and words of this song. It makes me think of traveling somewhere that is unknown to me, yet feeling that everything is going to be fine because there has been other people who have travel through that path before. Maybe traveling to death, but feeling happy that there are others who are waiting and calling for your return where you were first created by God. Just like Siddhartha's journey to enlightment; when he reaches the river and learns the //om// from it. Siddhartha had passed the river on his way to the town where Kamala lived, " In an earlier time I hear a voice like mystery" (Fogelberg). In an earlier time Siddhartha had not experience the voices of the river, but he came across the ferryman who told him that he had learned from the river and that he too would return. In that moment Siddhartha through the farryman, hear a mysterious voice. A thought that nobody had propose him before or even himself had thought of; a person learning from a river. In fact Siddhartha indeed returns to the river and "Find a fire burning bright" (Fogelberg). After having become close to the material world Siddhartha felt inpure. When he came across the river for the second time he admired it, he thought it was beautiful, and above all it brought him joy in that time of sadness. The river was a fire burning bright in Siddhartha's heart. It was the light that he needed to keep going with his life, and be cleanse from all the stuggles and pain he had faced before. When Siddhartha heard the thausand voices of the river Vasudeva, "...leaned over to Siddhartha and pronounced the //om// in his ear" (Hesse). Siddhartha has heard the //om,// a thausand voices that created one. The last stanza summerizes the //om//, "The spirits dance across the ages/ And melt into a river of souls" (Fogelberg). In the river there are the souls of people, their spirits, and even though there are a thausand voices they are all connected and become one whole voice. As all of the spirits were coming to one place; the "river." Siddhartha becomes release from pain by learning to listen to the river, and finally understands the unity of life through the river. ===

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All he wanted was to be free"
= = =Quote From The Book= "The river taught me how to listen, and you will learn that from it,too" (56).

Analysis:
===When Siddhartha spoke to Vasudeva about his passed struggles Vasudeva listen to him and did not say anything. Siddhartha felt that the ferryman was listening with an open mind, quietly, not trying to judge or praise him. Vasudeva had learned much from the river by observing it, and letting the river speak to him. Vasudeva was right to say to Siddhartha that, "The river taught me how to listen, and you will learn that from it, too" (Hesse). The river will bring Siddhartha knowledge of how to listen, through learning how to listen Siddhartha will find the most inner peace, joy, and knowledge about the world he had not been fully able to find since his journey to enlightment started. Vasudeva is a representation of the river, he is able to act like it, able to listen to it, he is a person that throught the many years of listening to it has reach enlightment and much understanding of the world. Siddhartha was willing also to reach that most inner peace because, "All he wanted was to be free" (Byrds). Siddhartha wanted to be free from the stuggles of the world, from desire, himself as a Brahman. Learning from the river would help him "wash down" all the pain he had face, and take him from a difficult life to a place of full happiness.===

=Om= ====There was once a boy born, named Siddtha. He was born into a wealthy Bolivian family; he was next on inheriting his father's enormous factory business. Since a child Siddtha was given everything and his parents always made sure that he was always happy. Siddtha grew and became a curious boy; he was never out of his house and was always kept in within his father's mansion. Siddtha wanted to know what the world outside of his house was like, he wanted to meet new people, have a adventures traveling the world. When Siddtha became a teenage boy he, “had begun to nurture dissatisfaction within himself. He had begun to feel that his father's love, and his mother's love... would not always and for all time make him happy, content him, sate him, suffice him" (2).==== ====The night before his seventeenth birthday, Siddtha decided that when the clock strike twelve that night he would escape his house and go into the world to have an adventure. He knew he was going to cause his parents much sorrow, but he decided he would return within two weeks. That night Siddtha wrote a long note, and with tears in his eyes he closes the enveloped and headed for the walls surrounding his huge house. Siddtha got a latter and leaned it against the wall, Siddtha got his small luggage bag and started to climb the latter. Before he had reached the top of the wall, one of the servants was walking at night looking for something she had lost in the garden early that day. She saw him and became scared, she yelled at him, " what do you think you’re doing, where are you going?" Siddtha told her to lower her voice and order to not say a word to his parents. She did not listen and ran inside to alarm his parents. Siddtha hurried and jumped over the wall, when he saw the many houses outside his house he felt a joy he had not felt before. Siddtha ran away from his house and as he got to a hill the sun started to come out, he thought to himself, " The world was beautiful, the world was full of variety, the world was strange and puzzling!" (22). Siddtha saw the beautiful colors of the sun, and saw the sky being brighten by the sun.==== ====Siddtha remembered that he had a cousin in one of the capitals of Bolivia, Sucre, he thought of going and visiting him. He knew Sucre was far away from there, but he was willing to explore his town and visit his long-distance cousin. Siddtha started to walk down the hill, he was walking through the streets of his town, and felt joy and sadness at the same time. He was very happy to see the houses of others, see others getting ready for work, but he felt sad because all the people he saw were people who dressed differently and their faces seemed tired. He saw that their living conditions were harsh, and saw kids walking out of their houses to go to school without shoes. He suddenly felt sad, he wondered, "how could a world full of beauties be full of..." Siddtha stopped for a moment and could not think of a word for what he felt. He continued to walk, and suddenly his stomach growled.==== ====Siddtha then realize that he had not thought his adventure all the way through. He just wanted to have an adventure and see the world. As he continued walking through the streets, he got to the end of them and saw that there were many cars passing by. Many people knew his father and knew that he had a son; Siddtha did not know what to do. He started to cross the street full of cars, and suddenly a horn was going off. Siddtha was almost hit by the car; the angry man that almost hit him got off the car and started yelling at him. He recognized his face, and he asked him, “Doesn’t your father own one of the biggest textiles industries of Bolivia”? Siddtha was scared, and told him to leave him alone. The angry men grabbed him, and told him that he was going to take him to the police. An old women walking on the street saw Siddtha and walked up to him, he told the men to go away if he didn't wanted to get cursed by the most powerful gypsy that existed. The angry man let go of Siddtha's arm and left. Siddtha looked at the women, and told asked her, “you are a gypsy?" The women replied, “you’re welcome." The women then walked away, Siddtha followed her for many hours until he got to a hill that was secluded from the town. The women realize that Siddtha had been following her, and told him that he could come into her house if he gave him the shoes he was wearing. Siddtha thought that it was a quite peculiar thing to ask for, but being hungry and thirsty he agreed.==== ====As Siddtha entered the women’s house and noticed that the only thing she owned were some chairs, kitchen tools, and a table. She told him to sit down and to take off his shoes. The women gave Siddtha a cup of water and a slice of bread. Siddtha started to look around and noticed that the women's bright green eyes were looking at him. The women then introduced herself, " my name is, Graciela one of the last gypsy in Bolivia." Then she went on and asked Siddtha, " young boy, why are you out of your house? Why did you decide to come out here and leave all the wealth you had?" With his mouth and eyes wide open Siddtha replied, “how do you know I ran away from my house?" Graciela didn't reply.==== ====Later that day a man came in, he was wearing a black coat, and Siddtha saw that the men gave Graciela money. The man left, and every two hours a different person came to tell Graciela something or give her money. Graciela told Siddtha that he was welcome to stay in her house as long as he worked for her. Siddtha did not wanted to stay, and told her that he was thankful for what she had done for him but that before it got dark he would leave her house. Graciela got angry, and told him that if he didn't stay he was going to be cursed for the rest of his life. Siddtha didn't believe her and left the house. It was getting dark and Siddtha did not know where to go, he had many thoughts that evening. He had experience hunger and unfriendly comments, things he had not had to go through before. Siddtha started to head back home, but suddenly Graciela came out from behind him and grabbed his hand and tied them quickly. Siddtha fought back, but he started to feel weak. He could not move, and wondered why, he started to lose conscience and saw that he had a bite on his left leg. Siddtha had a dream before he awakened, "... he felt hemmed in by a profound sadness. It appeared to him that he had been living his life in a worthless way..." (44). In his dream he remembered the huge birthday celebrations his parents did for him every year, the money that was given to him by his father's friends, the house maids always prepared him his food, and saw that he had no friends. Siddtha saw that all his life he had been giving everything and that he never learned to do things for himself.====

====The sun's rays woke Siddtha from his dream; he started thinking of what had happened to him. Siddtha realized that he had been captured by Graciela. Siddtha started to think of the things he had gone through, experiencing hunger and bad treatment. Things he had not experience before, he was unhappy and scared and wondered why Graciela had captured him. He wondered if he could become happy, but he knew he wanted a different type of happiness, a happiness that he had not experience before. As Siddtha contemplated his thoughts, Graciela came into the room...====

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