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=Ana's Scrapbook =

This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's Siddhartha, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

=With the Samanas =

The Assignment
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel Siddhartha, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up make-up, because it's technically not something I need. Technically. ==Beginning of the Week == I usually never leave my house without any make-up on, so, giving up my make-up was VERY difficult for me. I honestly cannot live without my make-up, and when I don't where my make-up I get really insecure. The first day actually leaving my house to school, was a huge challenge for me. I had no idea what my friends or  classmates would say. My friends told me I looked pretty, others just looked at me funny and asked, "are you okay?!" Most people thought that I looked sick, every time someone asked, I had to explain that I am not wearing make-up for a project in school. After day two, I already felt like it has been forever! It is really hard to even look at myself in the mirror. I don't like what I see. I am really close to my breaking point and I feel like I HAVE to put my eye make-up on! I don't know how I did it, but I didn't break. I regret picking make-up to give up for a whole week. = = = = = =

Middle of the Week
== My brother saw that I was struggling with my project, so he told me that I could do it, even though it was hard to do. He gave me words of encouragement and told me I could finish strong. I am thankful for my brother. Because of him, I lasted another long day. "What do you think? Have we made any progress? Have we reached any goals?" (9) which is exactly the same questions I was asking myself. I was trying to set a goal, with me and my spirit. My goal is to feel happy with who I am and realize that I am beautiful no matter what. = = == = = = = =End of the Week = = I realize after this long, struggling journey, that a little make-up goes a long way. I, somewhat, think I actually look kind of good with out make-up. Don't get me wrong though, I still LOVE my make-up! I really felt like i got to see my true beauty for once, "he looked around as if he were seeing the world for the first time. The world was beautiful, the world was full of variety, the world was strange and puzzling." The world would be representing me and my face and how I felt about it. I got to see my true beauty, which I haven't seen in quite a while. Did it look strange? Beautiful? I am not going to beat myself up with insecurity any more, because I am fearfully and wonderfully made by God. He made me the way I am for a reason and he loves exactly how I look. Now all that matters is that I am happy with who I am, no matter what anybody else says. =

=The Awakening =

The Quote
Siddhartha's eyes are opened to the world for the very first time. He sees "the world for the first time. The world was beautiful strange and mysterious. Here was blue, here was yellow, here was green, sky and river, woods and mountains, all beautiful, all mysterious and enchanting, and in the midst of it, he, Siddhartha, the awakened one, on the way to himself. All this, all this yellow and blue, river and wood, passed for the first time across Siddhartha's eyes." (39)

=The Image =

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=Analysis =

I tried to incorporate as much of what Siddhartha sees. He sees "blue", "yellow", "green", "sky", "river", "forest", and "mountains." He also saw the world as beautiful, so i decided to add some nice sequins to the drawing. I also put in an eagle and a butterfly because they are also part of nature and are very beautiful creatures. I also put Siddhartha observing what he sees. This setting impacts the story because of what is in the scene. The nice flowing fiver, which is blue, represents the calmness of something and the freshness. It also represents purity, and Siddhartha is seeing the world as a whole, and is seeing it in a new perspective. There is a lot of green to show the nature of where Siddhartha is. Yellow, in the sun, reflecting the trees and river, represents enlightenment and wisdom.

=Kamala =
 * Name:** Kamala


 * Location:** I live in a town house (grove), in a big town.


 * Eyes:** My eyes are very dark, clever and alert.


 * Hair:** My hair is high-piled and black.


 * About Me (looks):** I have a very fair, very soft, very clever face along with bright-red lips. My eyebrows are well tended and painted in high arches. I have a long fair neck, fair hands at rest, long and narrow, with wide gold bracelets at the wrists. My beauty and cleverness make men change their whole personality. Men are willing to change everything about them just for me. One man was willing to change everything for me, he had an aim. One day he said to himself as he saw me, "I am still a samana, still an ascetic and mendicant. I cannot remain this way, this way I shall be unable to enter the grove"(29). Later he came to my grove, telling me he was willing to change everything about himself.


 * Hobbies/Profession: ** I practice the art of love. I spend my time teaching other men what I am an expert at. A man came to me asking for my assistance, he said to me, "And, if it does not displease you, Kamala, I would like to ask you to be my friend and instructress, for I still know nothing of the art in which you are an expert" (30). I am very sly, and know how to get my way, even if I don't want it.


 * Looking For (speech, effect on others):** What exactly am I looking for in a man? I want a man who wears fine clothes, a man who wears elegant shoes, a man who's hair is perfumed, and a man who has money in his purses. I once told a man who came to me asking if he was satisfactory, I said laughing, "No, my good man, he still does not satisfy me! He must have clothes, handsome clothes, and shoes, good-looking shoes, and a lot of money in his purse, and gifts for Kamala" (30). In order for any man to satisfy me, he must meet all of my requirements, no matter how hard it may be to achieve them.

=Samsara=

My Daily Life
1. Wake up when my alarm clock goes off 2. Get ready for the whole school day (packing backpack, packing lunch etc). 3. Ride the bus to school 4. Go to my classes to learn 5. Ride the bus back home 6. Eat a snack 7. Do homework 8. Get ready for bed 9. Go to sleep

=The Comic!= =Analysis=

I live a pretty average life, that most teenagers live during the weekdays. I wake up, get ready for school, then leave my house. After a long day at school, I come back home, do homework, and eat. Finally, I get to go to sleep. Even though the days are long, I feel like time passes by so quickly. The year goes by in a blink of an eye. One second I'm saying, Happy New Years, the next, I am saying Merry Christmas! I feel a little like Siddartha because "the years [pass] by... [and I] hardly [notice] their passing" (75). I need to start treasuring everyday of my life because time just goes by so fast. Everyday is a special day, and I need to accept it.

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 * Song: "River of Dreams" by Billy Joe**

In the middle of the night I go walking in my sleep Through the valley of fear To a river so deep And I've been searching for something Taken out of my soul Something I would never lose Something somebody stole I don't know why I go walking at night But now I'm tired and I don't want to walk any more I hope it doesn't take the rest of my life Until I find what it is that I've been looking for
 * Lyrics:**

"He ardently wished to know nothing more about himself, to enjoy repose, to be dead... and sleep without any more awakening " (46).
 * Quote from the text: **

Siddartha had been looking for something, something to make him happy. He was searching for the right happiness. He thought he had found it, but pride overtook him and stole his happiness. Siddartha wishes that he could just die. He is tired of living the way he is. He just wants to be happy again.
 * Analysis:**

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 * Song:** **"Rain Over Me" By Pitbull featuring Mark Anthony**

I'm rising so high Out of my mind So let it rain over me
 * Lyrics:**

"And at the moment that the sound om touched Siddhartha's ears, his intellect, which had fallen asleep, suddenly awakened and realized the folly of what he was doing" (47).
 * Quote from the text:**

Siddhartha had gotten to his hardest point in life. He wanted to end his life, he was "out of his mind." Fortunately, right before he decided to end his life, it seemed like an understanding finally came "over him." Siddhartha finally realized what he was doing and stopped it immediately.
 * Analysis:**

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 * Song: "River Flows in You" By Yimura**

You are not the fool, no, you're a beautiful one, you are like the sun, cause this one river flows in you.
 * Lyrics:**

"He saw: this water flowed and flowed, it kept on flowing, and yet it was always there; it was always and at all times the same and yet new every moment" (54).
 * Quote from the text:**

The river Siddhartha was at, kept flowing and flowing. Not only physically, but in his soul. The river delighted him. Siddhartha was no longer a fool.
 * Analysis:**

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