AshleyHSB

= Ashley's Scrapbook =

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This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's Siddhartha, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.======

The Assignment [[image:ahpinterest.PNG width="465" height="238" align="right"]]
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel Siddhartha, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up Pinterest.

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The first few days of giving up Pinterest weren't to bad because I was pretty busy and I tried to distract myself with other things. But I would still want to go on it because I have the app on my phone so everyday I would see it and would be tempted to go on. Just as Siddhartha wondered, "Are we gaining knowledge?" (17), I also was not feeling total withdrawal because it had only been a few days.======

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After a few days, my withdrawal from Pinterest really started to affect me and I was feeling disengaged from the world. I was always tempted to go on Pinterest. Just like Siddhartha, I thought that, "The world tasted bitter. Life was pain," (14). I didn't want to keep going on the journey to enlightenment.======

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At the end of the week I was really feeling deprived from Pinterest. I managed to keep going by telling myself there was only a few days left. Just like Siddhartha, I "travelled along the path of self-denial through pain, through voluntary suffering and conquering pain," (15). I wanted to quit but I never did. I made it through the week of withdrawal and now I do not feel as attached to Pinterest because I know I can make it without it.======

Awakening

I used this picture to represent how Siddhartha saw the new world once he awakened. I used a lot of "yellow", "blue", and "green", that the world was filled with. I also included the "sky and river, woods and mountains," that Siddhartha saw. I think that this description gives the story a sense of peacefulness. It shows that sometimes you just had to sit back and admire the world to really understand it. Siddhartha finally acknowledged the beauty and meaningfulness of the world around him.

**Kamala**
**Name**: Kamala


 * Location**: I live in Pleasure Grove.
 * Eyes**: I have "dark eyes" (51).


 * Hair**: I have "black hair" (51).


 * About Me**: I am very beautiful woman. You can tell I am clever and intelligent from my "bright fair face, and...clever arched eyes" (51). I am very confident in myself and my skills. I live in luxury.


 * Hobbies/ Profession**: I am a courtesan. Men come to me "to learn about love" (55). I am a great teacher and have taught many. Men have learned great things about love that they had not known before.


 * Looking For:** I know what I want and will not settle for anything less. A proper man must have "clothes, shoes, [and] money" (55). If a man does not have those things, he will not be accepted into my Pleasure Grove. A man must also give me presents. I am very materialistic. These requirements do not seem a problem for men, as they are quickly acquired.

**Samsara**
1. Wake Up 2. Ride the bus to school 3. Learn 4. Go to track 5. Eat dinner 6. Shower 7. Do Homework 8. Go to bed
 * My Daily Life**



My daily routine consists of getting up and getting ready for school and then going to school. After learning all day I then go to field hockey if its fall or to track in the winter and spring. Then I go home, shower and eat dinner. After that I work all night doing homework and then I can finally go to sleep. Pretty much all I do all day is work. I feel like my work never goes away, there is always something to do. Just like Siddhartha, the work has settled on me, "every day a little thicker, every month a darker, every year a little heavier," (78). I am always glad when I can have just a little free time and can relax and not stress over all the work I will have to do.
 * Analysis:**

media type="custom" key="24653132" "but if you're too big to follow rivers how you ever gonna find the sea?"
 * Song: "River" by Emeli Sande**
 * Lyrics:**

"The river has taught me to listen; you will learn from it, too. The river knows everything; one can learn everything from it" (105). The river was a teacher to Siddhartha, for it "knows everything" (Hesse 105). Much like in the song, Siddhartha had to "follow rivers" (Emeli Sande) to gain most of his wisdom. Siddhartha learned almost everything he needed to get through his life from the river. The river taught him how to live, without it he would have died.
 * Quote:**
 * Analysis:**

media type="custom" key="24576072" "Like two rivers flow to the open sea Someday we'll reunite for all eternity" "Siddhartha saw the river hasten, made up of himself and his relatives and all the people he had ever seen. All the waves and water hastened, suffering, towards goals, many goals, to the waterfall, to the sea, to the current, to the ocean and all the goals were reached and each one was succeeded by another" (135).
 * Song: "Two Rivers" by Avril Lavigne**
 * Lyrics:**
 * Quote from text:**

When watching the river, Siddhartha sees "all the people he has ever seen" (Hesse 135) come together. Much like the song says that "rivers flow to the open sea" (Avril Lavigne), the faces of the people all floated down the river "towards goals" (Hesse 135). Siddhartha sees everyone reunite and become one at the river. The faces all joined together in unity and perfection, also known as Om.
 * Analysis:**

media type="custom" key="24576122" "Sink in the river The lessons I learned"
 * Song: "Counting Stars" by One Republic**
 * Lyrics:**

"He looked down and was completely filled with the desire to let himself go and be submerged in the water. A chilly emptiness in the water reflected the terrible emptiness in his soul" (88)
 * Quote from text:**

Siddhartha had wanted to drown himself in the river because of the "emptiness in his soul" (Hesse 88). Just like in the song, Siddhartha wanted to get rid of "the lessons [he] learned" (One Republic). Siddhartha did not like how he had lived and he wanted to destroy his life. He did not think that he had any purpose.
 * Analysis:**