RaylajaScrabook7

__**The Beginning**__
Today I dont write my feelings down and I'm okay because evey now or then I would miss a day of writing in my journal. Now its day two I keep wanting to write so I pick up my pencil and open my journal but instead i just drew a picture... A blank page with a picture made of twon lines... I drew an "X" because I knew I cant write my feelings down like I want to. I write in my journal once a day just about my feelings and how my day went or about things I have planned for the week. " He only ate once a day" (13, Rosner) When I reflect on this quote It makes me think of how I wrote a journal entre once a day just like he ate once a day.
 * < My blank page journal**

**__The Middle__**
<- Talking to my aunt
 * Today I told my aunt my feelings instead of writing them just to see would it help calm me and it did calm me a little but not completely. The next day my aunt wasn't at my house so I told my mother how I was feeling and she didn't understand my thoughts or feeling so I just beat up my pillow out of anger that my mother had built up into me. She is one of the reasons why i write because she does the oppisite of my journal.**
 * "Mothers soothing children" (14) When I reflect on this quote it makes me think of how my mother dont understand my feelings so I write them....**

**__The End__**
< Writes in my journal.
 * I ended up giving up because my mother just made me want to write more because she didn't understand ANYTHING about how I felt at the time or how stressful my days went in and outside of school.**



Everyday I wake up brush my teeth, go to school, go to practice then end up back home where I started. I do so much trying to get so much done but end up no where with nothing done. Just like Siddartha I feel everything I do is pretty much worthless....

Emeli Sande - River So follow me, I'll be your river river, I'll do the running for ya, follow me, I'll be your river river, I'll move the mountains for ya, Follow me, I'll be your river river, I'm here to keep you flowing, follow me, I'll be your river river, river river, yea

Quote: "He ate only once a day, and never ate anything cooked. He fasted for fifteen days. He fasted for twenty-eight days. The flesh on his thighs and cheeks dwindled away. From his enlarged eyes flickered hot dreams; the nails grew long on his dried-out fingers and he had a dry, unkempt beard on his chin. When he encountered females, his gaze was frigid; when he went through a city where the men were handsomely clothed, his mouth twitched with contempt."

Tina Turnner - Rolling in the river I left a good job in the city Working for the man every night and day And I never lost one minute of sleeping Worrying ’bout the way things might have been Big wheel keep on turning Proud mary keep on burning And we’re rolling, rolling Rolling on the river Quote: “We are not going in circles, we are going upwards. The path is a spiral; we have already climbed many steps.”

TLC- Water Falls

Don't go chasing waterfalls Please stick to the rivers And the lakes that you're used to I know that you're gonna have it Your way or nothing at all But I think you're moving too fast

Quote: "What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find.”



About Me : Im a mother a beautiful baby boy by a man named Siddartha. I met Siddartha when I was teaching him the ways of the city and had him leave his life with the samana. We ended due to a bite gone bad but Im looking for love now in another life.

Job: I am a teacher who teaches Lust and greed I also teach how the material world is not enough to satistfy you. I even teach the physical aspects of love as well as the importance of love its self. My job title is most likely why I have yet to find love because I'm so busy teaching about love that I never give myself the chance to find it.

Looking for in a man: I'm looking for a man that has good hygene. That mean no beard, and your hair must be combed and oiled. Also you must have the finest clothes and shoes and a lot of money in your purse. I also Like someone who gives me gifts all the time. I love getting gifts for no reason at all.

"The world was beautiful and colorful; the world was strange and mysterious! Here was blue, here was green, the sky, and the river flowed the forest, and the mountains were fixed in their places."