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=Carleigh's Self-Realization Scrapbook=

[[image:https://encrypted-tbn3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQ5_udHwbDNSQl64zWmSHbQWpzZdsjuI1C8lRLio6kopCXrIhJ7 width="259" height="195"]]**The Assingnment**
====To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel //Siddhartha//, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up pasta, I eat it all the time but i could really live without it.====

The Beginning [[image:http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTWU84T-hbZsQ5jtB8zzAtv_7A32zkiI9THxgAX2RlLECYunHRl height="210" align="right"]]
====The first day of self deprivation I felt confident that i could live without eating pasta even though i eat it every other day or everyday. Then the second day came around and my family went out to eat. I saw the word pasta on the menu and I started craving it. Knowing I couldn't eat it disappointed me. At that moment "the world tasted bitter" (Hesse 14). Without pasta the world felt incomplete and life was hard.====

The Middle
The third day of deprivation was torture! For lunch I craved pasta then to top it off my mom made spaghetti for dinner. I felt like she did it on purpose to tempt me. Although, she had already planned it and it just happened to be for Sunday dinner. As an alternative, I ate it with rice instead it was not nearly as good. Honestly, it was gross. On the fourth day i gained back my confidence. I wasn't exposed to pasta which played a huge role. Also, I kind of got over the fact that I wouldn't be able to eat it. I felt like i could do it!

=== The End  === On the fifth day pain returned. During school I couldn't stop thinking about pasta whenever I saw someone eating food or when I was eating. I really felt like giving upbut i still had a little power to push through. By the last day I felt like I could do it. At the end of the day I thought I "learned a great deal" (15). Just as Siddhartha did when he decided to join the astetics. I also thought about wether or not "sacrifices give happiness" (6). I reflected on how i felt over the week and realized that at times giving up pasta gave me happiness because I felt like I could do it which made me proud. Yet sometimes it provided me with sadness because I really wanted to give up and eat pasta again.

The Quote
In the book, Siddhartha awakened to the world once he decided to leave the Samanas. He saw "sky and river, woods and mountains" (39). We he awakened he looked around as if he saw the world for the first time. As he looked around he though " here was blue, here was yellow, here was green" (39). He felt "deaf and stupid" (40) for not realizing reality was not hidden behind things that is they were in them.

The Image
This is a picture of what I thought Siddhartha's awakening looked like.

My Daily Life:

 * 1) Get up at 6:30am and get ready for school.
 * 2) Get on the bus at 7:40am.
 * 3) Go to school.
 * 4) Leave School get of the Bus at 5pm.
 * 5) Eat dinner when I get home.
 * 6) Do homework and go to bed.