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John Linkous' Self-Realization Digital Scrapbook
Here I will share my experience from the journey in which i took part of. I will be comparing my journey to that of Siddhartha (Buddha) with quotes, and examples This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's // Siddhartha //, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

= With The Samanas =

The Assignment
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel // Siddhartha //, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up candy(sweets and deserts), because it's technically not something i need. Technially

Getting Started
For the experiment I decided to give up any sugary sweets like doughnuts or cinnamon buns something I ate on a daily basis.At first I thought the experiment of giving up sweets for a week would be easy, but i quickly learned how wrong i was after not eating cinnamon buns for break feast. At the very start of this experiment I felt like "the world tasted bitter"(Hesse14) the fact that i was not eating any sweets made any thing i eat bitter I could not eat any sweets so the only thing left for me was the bitter thing in life.

Mid-Week
After a couple of day with out eating doughnuts or cinnamon buns I felt like i truly could go the rest of the week without eating them, but there was a empty feeling left in my heart from where they used to part of my daily routing. The feeling of being empty i experienced can compared to Siddhartha's single goal "to become empty, to become empty of thirst, desire, dreams, pleasure, and sorrow"(Hesse 14). The feeling of being empty i experienced was one that was similar to not caring. I would not act on impulse think before i acted, and i also warded off any temptations which would make me fail my goal of no sweets.

By The End
At the end of the week i definitely felt like a lost something, but that feeling is a normal feeling that every one should feel it. To me the experience i had felt during the week was" It is a flight from the self, it is temporary", meaning every thing I did would only me temporary since in a week i will definitely be eating cinnamon buns for break feast( a week has past I'm eating cinnamon buns every day now.), but the only thing that is was not temporary was the feeling of loosing something.

=Awakening=

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 * Dating profile**
 * Name:** Kamale
 * Location:** I live in Pleasant Grove.
 * Eyes:** I have "Dark eyes"
 * H air: **I have "Black hair"
 * About me:** I have a very luxurious life. I'm a very confident and beautiful "bright fair face, and...clever arched eyes" (Hesse51).
 * Hobbies/profession** My profession is Courtesan i entertain the " many young men that come to me, including Brahmins' sons"(Hesse 54) all of them i entertain for a fair price ( aka.. shes a prostitute...)
 * Lookin g for: ** I am looking for a man who can take care of me nicely, and caring, For a man to have me " He must have clothes,fine clothes, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse and presents for Kamala"(Hesse 54), Only then will i be with him.

=Samsara=

My Daily Life
//Write down a list of things you do every day or every week. What are your routines? What does a day in your life look like? Be sure to include at least 6 things.// 1. Wake up. 2. Realize I'm going to be late. 3. Barely make the bus 4. Realize how much sleep i didn't get on the bus 5. Arrive to school 6. Attend first class 7. Fall asleep in first class 8. go to the next couple classes... fall asleep ( take a nap..) 9. go home 10. Go to sleep.

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This comic represent one of my old routine that I'm finally starting to break this year. In the morning i would wake up to see that I'm going to be late for the bus, so i get ready as fast as i can. After i get ready for school I leave the house, and run for the bus ( really i just walk), and always make it right before it leaves with out me. When I board the bus I realize how much sleep i did not get that night, and try to sleep on the bus. Since sleeping on the bus does not work i would basically sleep through out the day when ever i had the chance ( English...Health..). Then after school when I arrived home I sleep some more. My routine was similar to how Siddhartha felt about his eternal self " It still revolved, but slowly and hesitatingly, and it had nearly come to a stand still"(Hesse 76). My routine every day was the same with a change it in it becoming less and less, it was till i decided that this way was bad that i decided to change.

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