RoseA1213


 * Matter Over Mind**

Gena wants to go off to college, but has just found out she is pregnant, and thinks that she will not succeed with a baby.

I bite my lip staring at the thickness of the packet from USC that lay on my desk. I place a hand over my stomach. I hope I'm not pregnant. Everyone will be disappointed in me. One night, just one I got carried away, and now I have fallen into the steps of my mother.

Weeks went by and I started to vomit a lot, my appetite grew, and I slept as if I was a baby, that was all I did nowadays. I decided to call Taren and tell him what was going on. While we were on the phone I said "Taren... I think I'm pregnant." Taren was startled and said "What? How so? Did you take a test?" I answered motionlessly "Not yet, I keep having many of the symptoms, but Maya and I are going to go and get a couple for me today just in case I am" "Ok, let me know the results" said Taren, and we each said our goodbyes.

15 minutes later Maya soon then arrived at my house and we went to get the test from CVS. When we arrived back at my house, I rushed to the bathroom and took the test. I came out of the bathroom to wait for about 3-5 minutes before I got the results for the test. "So what do you think?" asked Maya, concerned that I, her best friend was pregnant. "I think I'm pregnant," I said sorrowfully, "I'm going to go look now though."

I came back out of the bathroom balling with tears, I gave Maya the results and she hugged me so. We sat there for a good 5-7 minutes in complete silence. Maya broke the silence and said "What are you going to do?" sobbing, I said "I'm going to keep it, because I don't believe in abortion, and I don't want my child going off with complete strangers, because in the future i'll wish I never gave the child away." "So how do you think Taren will take this?" asked Maya. "He wont take it very well at all" I said crying even more. "How are you going to tell your mom? Maya said. "Maya I really don't know." I said sadly. "I'll just call you tomorrow okay? I need to sleep on this." We said our goodbyes.

The next morning I called Taren to reveal the shocking news to him. He did not take the news well at all. "Gena what are we going to do? How will we go off to college, manage jobs, take care of a baby and pay a babysitter?" He said. I replied and said "I questioned myself and questioned myself with the same questions Taren" stressing myself more than what I already needed to be. "Have you told your mom?" He asked. "No".

"Mom, come here we need to talk." I said. I lived with my mom and sister, my mother is a single mother and I pray to god I will not turn out to be a single mother later on in life just like her. "Yes sweety" she said as she entered the room, anxious of what I needed to tell her. "Mom look...." I showed her the test, I could tell she was not expecting me to give her this type of news. Her face watered with tears flowing down her cheeks, no words were said, and she just left the room.

I called Maya to come and get me, I needed fresh air from all of this shocking, overwhelming news, so we are going to go to the mall. In 10 minutes she was at my door, and we left. "So fill me in on everything" Maya said as she tried to figure out what radio station to play, that would change the mood. "Long story short...I told my mom, she started crying, no words were said to me, and she hasn't spoken since." ...

That day I had a great time with Maya, I'm glad she came to get me to let everything vanish from what was going on in my mind. But that was months ago, I am now 5 and a half months pregnant with a baby girl, and it is almost time for me to go off to college. Taren has accepted the fact that we are going to have a baby, his parents took it worse than my mom did, but they accept it now. I guess my mom took it better than they did because she went through what I'm going through. My mom didn't really have anything to say, she spoke to me later that day after I told her, and her and Taren both said they'd be here for me.

Taren and I decided what college we were going to go too, although it wasn't what we planned but we made the best of it. We decided to go to JMU it was right here at home, we each had jobs so that we could take care of ourselves and the baby. He work at Wendy's while I work at Kroger.

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It's school time now, and I'm very scared to go off to college, I'm going to look like a big wobbling beast...yuck. I have to make the best of my life now though. I will not fall in my mothers footsteps, I will have my child, AND also go off to college and succeed in life.

4 months later...

Baby London was born on November 14th, 2012 at 3:45 a.m. She was so gorgeous, she had my eyes, and my hair, everything else was similar to Taren, her caramel, soft skin, and big head, haha. I held her in my arms and stared at her and said "I promise to give you everything you want in life, I will not follow my mother's footsteps, I will succeed in college with you, and for you, I love you."