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"He travelled along the same path, made the same endeavors. They rarely conversed with eachother apart from the necessities of their service and practices"(16).This shows my morning routine and how it repeats itself over and over and over again. I do this every school day and will probably continue to do it until I'm about 21. Samsara has the same idea. It shows the cycle of birth and how when you die you are reborn into something new over and over and over agian. It never stops. Routines and Samsara repeat itself in their own little cycle. media type="custom" key="21298374"The Assignment To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel //Siddhartha//, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up using my phone in class, because it's a bad habbit that i should break.

Getting Started At first I didnt realize how much of an effect it would have on me. In fact, the first day I forgot about my self deprivation project and I used my phone, so I had to start a day later and add on a day to the end. I continued to forget about not using my phone. I would reach for it but quickly remember that i couldn't look at or read it. Realizing how much i need my phone to concintrate I was "truly filled with longing" (Rosner 22) It helped though that on the second day my phone dyed during school so I didn't have a choice but not use it.



Mid-Week
Mid-week was probably the hardest time. My photography and history teacher let everyone quitely listen to music and of course my music happened to all be on my phone. Restraining myself from pulling out my phone and listening to my music was was very difficult and tempting. Sidhartha must have felt very tempted too during his journey of not eating. He probably wanted to give up and eat many times but he didnt which means he knew there was a reason for it and I knew there was a reason why I couln't give up and listen to my phone, "whether there are still other and better fruits let us patiently wait and see" (pg 23) I kept reminding myself that not using my phone in class would, in the long run, be better for me. However, I found myself becoming more figity in class. I move my legs anxously in class and my brain feels a little scattered. I feel something missing.



By The End
Suprisingly, by the end of the week not using my phone wasn't a nagging struggle anymore. I forgot about it and my scatteredness decreased significantly. However, I still felt figity and a little withdrawn but not nearly as bad as in the beginging of the week. I had "expirenced temperary escape"(pg 17) I wasn't worried anymore and felt like I payed more attention in class. I had come to a conclusion that checking my phone, facebook, and twitter really isnt that nessacery, it can wait until after school. I may want to use it but I have realized that i indeed do have the willpower to fight my temptations. Which really suprised me. I thought i would cave in and use my phone but i was very proud that i didnt.

=Awakening=

The Quote
What does Siddhartha's "Awakening" look like? Is this the same thing as reaching Enlightenment? In the text, Siddhartha becomes awakened to the world around him after leaving the Samanas and Gotama (the Buddha). He sees "the world for the first time. The world was beautiful strange and mysterious. Here was blue, here was yellow, here was green, sky and river, woods and mountains, all beautiful, all mysterious and enchanting, and in the midst of it, he, Siddhartha, the awakened one, on the way to himself. All this, all this yellow and blue, river and wood, passed for the first time across Siddhartha's eyes. It was no longer the magic of Mara, it was no more the veil of Maya, it was no longer meaningless and the chance diversities of the appearances of the world, despised by deep-thinking Brahmins, who scorned diversity, who sought unity. River was river, and if the One and Divine in Siddhartha secretly lived in blue and river, it was just the divine art and intention that there should be yellow and blue, there sky and wood -- and here Siddhartha. Meaning and reality were not hidden somewhere behind things, they were in them, in all of them" (39). For my picture I wanted to make sure that the main points of it were the lush trees, flowing river, and powering mountains. I drew a curtain being pulled open because Siddharth was "opening" a new outlook on the world for himself. Everythihng was colorful, the sun the shining, and the river was flowing.

The Image



 * Name**: Kamala
 * Location**: a small town outside the grove
 * Eyes**: brown
 * Hair**: long dark brown
 * About Me: Kamala is a courtesan with many fine riches. She lives in a exquisit mansion of a house with a plentiful amount of willing servents that cater to her every need. She loves beautiful clothing, shoes, and bangles. She is the most stunning women throught the grove."...a painted red mouth like a freshly cut fig, artful eyebrows painted in a high arch, dark eyes, clever and observent..."(51).**

**Hobbies / Profession**
**Looking For**
 * She is a well-known courtesan who can give wonderful advice. "I am already begining to learn from you. I already learned something yesterday",Siddhartha spoke to her on just the second day with Kamala (54).She has helped a poor Saman and let him stay with her. She is also a wonderful teacher who can read and write.**
 * Kamala is not just looking for any ordinary man. She wants a man with fine clothes, shoes, and an abundent amount of money to shower her with gifts. '...they come to me in fine clothes, in fine shoes; there is scent in their hair and money in their purses"(54). Those are the types of men that Kamala is used to having and expects to have. You also need to know how to read and write suficently. To be with kamala you need to be a wealthy man.**