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This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's // Siddhartha //, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

= With The Samanas = = The Assignment = ==== To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel // Siddhartha //, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up meat, because it's technically not something I //** need **//. Technically. ==== . =** Getting Started **= ====In the beginning of the week I was so confident, it felt like I could take on the world, even though I only gave up meat! I had no clue what kind of food to go to because I have never been a partial vegetarian for a week, "He waited with new thirst like a hunter" (Hesse 15) it was hard to find out where to go and where each day will leave me.==== = Mid-Week = ====I have no clue how I made it to the middle of the week. Giving up meat was becoming harder but easier at the same time. I had set up a new routine to follow and I was determined to make it the whole week. "Conquered his will, commanded him silently to do as he wished"(15), I felt like I had power over the desire for meat and I was in control over what my brain wanted. I was becoming tempted and I was a little afraid of what the temptation would have on my mind.====

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=** By The End **=

By the end of the week I was feeling really good about myself, i had gotten through it. But then there was that thing that clicked in the back of my head saying.... "HAHA one more day and then you get to eat me all of the time." That part was hard because it was true, and I had no clue how I would go about meat after this. I have come up with a plan, only eat chicken twice a week and only eat red meat when you go out to dinner or on special occasions. "But although the paths took him away from self, in the end they always led back to it" (23), this quote has always reminded me that old habits will always come back even if you go down a different path, the thought of the old you will always be in the back of your head.

**Awakening:**


Siddhartha's path to awakening was difficult and confusing, he was confused about which way he should go and "he felt that he had also left his former life behind him in the grove" (37). The path in the pictures represents a curvy road to show his decisions and if it had brought his closer or if he went further away from awakening. When he finally awoke from his confusion he saw the world and the colours, "the world was beautiful, strange, and mysterious" (39). In this picture the river has fish jumping out of it to show the colours, the joyousness and happiness of the world. I chose the bright, popping colours because "here was blue, here was yellow, here was green, sky and river" (39) It's what Siddhartha saw when he first awoke, he saw these colours because he was now awake.

Kamala

 * Name:** Kamala


 * Location:** The Pleasure Grove (52)


 * Eyes:** Light Blue


 * Hair:** Chocolate Brown


 * About Me:** Kamala is very pretty, intelligent, she was slender a gorgeous woman. Siddhartha finds her very appealing and attractive "For a moment the beautiful woman nodded and disappeared into the grove, followed by her servants.(51)"


 * Hobbies/ Profession:** Kamala has a house in town and a :well-known courtesan.(52)" Kamala is used to young men with "fine clothes, in fine shoes (54)" not a poor man or a ragged looking man like a Samana.


 * Looking For:** Kamala says "he must have clothes, fine clothes, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse and presents for Kamala. (54) Kamala mentions to Siddhartha that Kamaswami is a rich merchant, "if you please him, he will take you into his service." (59)

**Samsara-**

 * My Daily Life-**
 * 1) Wake up**
 * 2) Get Ready and sing Adele**
 * 3) Eat breakfast and drink coffee**
 * 4) Wonder where the bus is**
 * 5) Get in the Bus**
 * 6) Arrive at School**
 * 7) Go to English class**

"The years passed by. Enveloped by comfortable circumstances, Siddhartha hardly noticed their passing. He had become rich. He had long possessed a house of his own and his own servants, and a garden at the outskirts of town, by the river. People liked him; they came to him if they wanted money or advice" (75). media type="custom" key="21347986"
 * Quote:**

I think my daily life is pretty normal compared to the average teenagers life. I have to wake up at 6:30 to make sure I have enough time to get ready and eat my delicious breakfast and drink some coffee. But before I eat I sing in the bathroom to Adele, she is just amazing! I then walk up the biggest hill in the world to get to my bus stop and i freak out each time because there is no one there and the bus is no where to be found. I finally arrive at school and go to English class as a happy person before I go to AP World History. I sit in each class thinking "the years have passed by" (75) because class is going by so fast. My routine makes me feel like I can control at least one thing in my life and that no one can mess with it because it's mine!
 * Analysis:**

**Songs:**
media type="custom" key="21324906" **Down in the River to Pray**

As i went down to the river to pray Studyin about that good ol' way and who shall wear the starry crown? Good Lord show me the way!
 * Lyrics:**

O sisters let's go down Lets go down, Come on down O sisters lets go down Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray Studyin about that good ol way And who shall wear the robe & crown Good Lord show me the way

O brothers lets go down Let's go down, Come on down O brothers lets go down Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Studyin about that good ol way <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">And who shall wear the star and crown? <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Good lord show me the way

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">O fathers lets go down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Let's go down, Come on down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">O fathers lets go down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Down in the river to pray

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">As I went down in the river to pray studying about that good ol way <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">And who shall wear th robe and crown <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Good Lord show me the way

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">O mothers lets go down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Come on down, don't you wanna go down? <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">O Mothers lets go down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Down in the river to pray

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">As I went down in the river to pray <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Studin about that good ol' way <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">And who shall wear the star and crown? <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Good Lord show me the way

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">O sinners lets go down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Lets go down, come on down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">O sinners lets go down <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Down in the river to pray

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">As I went down in the river to pray <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Studyin about that good ol way <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">And who shall wear the Robe and crown? <span style="background-color: #ffffff; font-family: Verdana,Arial; text-align: -webkit-center;">Good Lord show me the way


 * Quote:** "There was no more purpose; there was nothing more deep, painful longing to shake off this whole confused dream, to spit out this stale wine, to make an end of this bitter painful like." (88)

media type="custom" key="21325044" **I Can See Clearly Now**
 * Analysis:** The first time I ever heard this song was when I was watching O Brother Where Art Thou. I fell i love with the song because it should a struggle and the prisoners were struggling to get back to their families and this quote explaon at one point how they felt before reaching the river.


 * Lyrics:**

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I can see clearly now, the rain is gone, <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I can see all obstacles in my way <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Sun-Shiny day. <span class="b-lyrics-from-signature" style="color: #ffffff; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 0.8em;">[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/j/johnny+nash/can+see+clearly+now_20171838.html ] <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I think I can make it now, the pain is gone <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">All of the bad feelings have disappeared <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin?for <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Sun-Shiny day.

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Look all around, there’s nothin?but blue skies <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Look straight ahead, nothin?but blue skies

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I can see clearly now, the rain is gone, <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I can see all obstacles in my way <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) <span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Sun-Shiny day.


 * Quote:** "He was full of joyous love towards everything that he saw." (94)


 * Analysis:** This quote reminds me of this song because he is being reborn and seeing a new light. Just like it says in the song "I can see clearly now the rain is gone", this quote form the song connects to the quote because they are both happy that they saw once again.

media type="custom" key="21325150" **Just Around the Riverbend**


 * Lyrics:**

What I love most about rivers is: You can't step in the same river twice The water's always changing, always flowing But people, I guess, can't live like that We all must pay a price To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing What's around the riverbend Waiting just around the riverbend

I look once more Just around the riverbend Beyond the shore Where the gulls fly free Don't know what for What I dream the day might send Jut around the riverbend For me Coming for me

I feel it there beyond those trees Or right behind these waterfalls Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming For a handsome sturdy husband Who builds handsome sturdy walls And never dreams that something might be coming? Just around the riverbend Just around the riverbend

I look once more Just around the riverbend Beyond the shore Somewhere past the sea Don't know what for ... Why do all my dreams extend Just around the riverbend? Just around the riverbend ...

Should I choose the smoothest curve Steady as the beating drum? Should I marry Kocoum? Is all my dreaming at an end? Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver Just around the riverbend?


 * Quote:** "The Bird, the clear spring, and voice within him was still alive." (98)


 * Analysis:** The song and the quote connects because in the quote "the voice within him was still alive" connects to "just around the riverbend" because they still see the drive to fins the happiness and are waiting for it come, whenever it does.