AlecDSB

= Alec's Self-Realization Digital Scrapbook =

This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's Siddhartha, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

= __With The Samanas__ =

The Assignment
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel Siddhartha, try to reach enlightenment, I gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up 3D Modeling, because it's technically not something I needed. =  A Humble Start = I gave up 3D modeling on my laptop and on my other computers. The first day I was annoyed that I wasn't doing little modifications to my ongoing projects. During the day I would look at some of other peoples work and get ideas about making new designs. On the second day I would be worried that I was behind on doing things for all of the buildings that I have made. A humble start to a long journey of not using any 3D modeling."//But althoguh the paths took him away from Self, in the end they always led back to it,"(15)// = Half-Way = Half way during the week I wasn't really struggling anymore. Several days without modifying things stopped affecting me. I had time to do other things instead of my modeling. Actually this improved my modeling skill because it gave me time to think of new ideas. In working on simple drawings and different ideas then I had before ,I had a new perspective."//No longer to be Self, to experience the peace of an emptied heart, to experience pure thought,"(14)// = The Awakening = I drew this picture because I imagined this is what Siddartha would see during his awakening. The blue, green, and brown represent colors that Siddartha describes during his awakening. The blue in the picture, represents the river which is one of the things that Siddartha described in the part "Awakening." I wasn't really keen on the details about the picture, because the awakening is supposed to be so amazing that he wakes up from the world, that he was before that he cannot comprehend the full beauty of the world. I think that Hesse chose this spot in order to show the awakening meant beauty to Siddartha. In other words he chose this spot because, Siddartha hasn't seen this scenery before so seeing the beautiful secenery and having the awakening at the same time kind of overlaoded him witth beauty.

= Kamala = = = == =**About Me:**= I am a "well known courtesan"(52). I have been described as " a bright, very sweet, very clever face, a bright red mouth like a freshly colored fig, eyebrows painted in a high arch, dark eyes, clever and observant, and a clear and slender neck,"(51). =**Hobbies/ Profession:**= = = = = =**Looking For:**= I am looking for a guy that has "fine cloths, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse"(54). I also prefer young men "with scent in their hair"(54). =__Comic__= = = = = == =Comic Analysis= My daily life is okay although I don't spend my life trying to find the meaning of life. I think it's a general accepted fact that there is not a meaning of life that we can find so we go on with our daily lives. People who spent their time trying to search for and publish the meaning of life are generally thought to be crazy or they could be scamming. Another belief is that each meaning of life is different so that each person must find their own meaning.But while searching for a meaning you can learn something, like Siddartha he learned how to fast while on his search for the meaning of life. "It is of great value sir. If a man has nothing to eat fasting is the most intelligent thing he can do." (64)
 * Name: Kamala**
 * Location: I live in India**
 * Eyes: My eyes are "dark, clever and observant"(51).**
 * Hair: My hair is "heaped up black hair"(51).**
 * I am a courtesan by trade.**

In our daily routine we ignore the search of the meaning of life because we don't constantly search for it. The thing that we do is learn. Every day, for years until we can succeed in getting a job. The more you learn about that job the more likely you are able to get it. In a merchant job the ability to read and write distracted Siddartha from his quest because he had to learn to read and write before he got that far."Writing is good, thinking is better." (65) But without the ability to read and write Siddartha wouldn't have been able to gain access to the merchant's house. 'We shall still have plenty to discuss, but today I invite you to be my guest and to live in my house." (65)

I eat once a day when Siddartha doesn't have the need for food, instead he learned how to fast. Making it easier for him not to eat, therefore Siddartha has more .time than me. On the other hand Siddartha didn't go to school for several years so he doesn't have the education that I have. So the most important thing is that Siddartha doesn't have the experience of owning and caring for a property, so he won't settle down without the knowlage of doing all of the things that we have. My routine does have a negative effect on me but it will get better as I get older and more educated.

=__The River__= =media type="custom" key="24583024"=