MadisonGSB

Madison Gildersleeve-Price Scrapbook This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's Siddhartha, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

With the Samanas
The Assignment To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel Siddhartha, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up coffee, because it's technically not something I need. Technically.



My experience
I gave up Blueberry waffles. At first i thought not eating waffles was impossible. I have always had waffles in the morning for breakfast. The second day i decided to stop mopping and eat something else, so I made yogart with raspberries and gronoal. I had chocolate milk to go with it. The whole day I felt energized and awake. The second day i had eggs and bacon with orange jucie. After day three I was happy about my choice. Having a big breakfast that didn't consist of empty carbs and a few fruits and syrup all over the top was refreshing. By the end of the week I decided to stop eating waffles. I have had waffles a couple times but Eating big, healthy breakfasts has become a habit for the mornings now. I love it.

Siddharta's Journey
Siddharta gave up worldly desires and a comfortable home "In the shade of his house, in the sunshine on the river bank by the boats..." . He was waited upon and every wish of his was a command to his servants. Then he left the comfort to find himself "With your permission, Father, I have come to tell you that I wish to leave your house tomorrow and join the ascetics. I wish to become a Samana." When he joins the Saman's he feels peaceful but he also feels he is missing something. Finally he thinks he has learned enough and leaves the group. When he leaves he goes to a the town of Savathi. There he sees the buddha "there is the buddha...His peaceful countenance was neither happy nor sad...With a secret smile, unlike that of a healthy child, he walked along, peaceful, quietly." Siddharta and Govinda hear Buddha's techings and then Siddharta leaves Govinda and goes to the Buddha.

We are related how?
I gave up waffles for a week. Siddharta gave up his comforts and life to find himself. I didn't find myself but i did figure out that having a healthy breakfast is important. Siddharta finds truth and what it looks like to be peaceful and happy. He figures out giving up everything he did was worth it. I figured out that not having waffles won't make breakfast terrible. Like siddharta I have stopped doing the thing that prevented me for having the best day possible. Unlike Siddharta I have gone back to what I was doing before but not as much as before. Siddharta stays on the right track and doesn't go back to the comfort of his fathers house.

= Awakening =

The Quote
What does Siddhartha's "Awakening" look like? Is this the same thing as reaching Enlightenment? In the text, Siddhartha becomes awakened to the world around him after leaving the Samanas and Gotama (the Buddha). He sees "the world for the first time. The world was beautiful strange and mysterious. Here was blue, here was yellow, here was green, sky and river, woods and mountains, all beautiful, all mysterious and enchanting, and in the midst of it, he, Siddhartha, the awakened one, on the way to himself. All this, all this yellow and blue, river and wood, passed for the first time across Siddhartha's eyes. It was no longer the magic of Mara, it was no more the veil of Maya, it was no longer meaningless and the chance diversities of the appearances of the world, despised by deep-thinking Brahmins, who scorned diversity, who sought unity. River was river, and if the One and Divine in Siddhartha secretly lived in blue and river, it was just the divine art and intention that there should be yellow and blue, there sky and wood -- and here Siddhartha. Meaning and reality were not hidden somewhere behind things, they were in them, in all of them" (39).



Analysis
I drew this scene because in the quote the author explains that when Siddharta becomes awakened. He sees blue rivers, yellow and green mountains and forests. ..

Hesse picked this scene probably because it was a simple scene to see in your mind and its a beautiful scene.

= Kamala =


 * Name ** : Kamala


 * Location ** : The Grove of Kamala


 * Eyes ** : Dark Brown


 * Hair ** :Black

**About Me**
I am perfect. I have the best smile and best face out of all the women. I am looking for love. i love poetry if you are good at reciting it i would love to hear "...give me a kiss for a poem" "i will do so if your poem pleases me" (56)

**Hobbies / Profession:**
I entertain men for a living. I enjoy kissing random strangers for money. If they don't have money I dont associate myself with them. I enjoy being perfect and having men moon over me. I teach men to love "come to learn about love" (55)

**Looking For:**
I want a men with great wealth. I only want men with nice shoes and clothes and lots of money. I want love but only with a man of great wealth. I am beautiful so i deserve the most attractive and wealthy man in the world.

( ** Remember to use a quote - 3 TOTAL - ** for "About Me," "Hobbies/Profession," and "Looking For" - this dating profile should be from Kamala's point of view and explain to a man like Siddhartha who Kamala is and what she expects from a man.

=Samsara=

My Daily Life
//Write down a list of things you do every day or every week. What are your routines? What does a day in your life look like? Be sure to include at least 6 thing.//

**1. wake up**

 * 2. get dressed**
 * 3. eat waffles**
 * 4. go to school**
 * 5. learn**
 * 6. eat lunch and talk to friends**
 * 7. learn more**
 * 9. do homework/ tv/read **
 * 10. eat dinner**
 * 11. take shower**
 * 12. go to sleep**

Analysis
My life is pretty normal. I wake up around 6:30... or 7:00 each weekday. After getting dressed i eat breakfast. i get on the bus every morning. unless i miss the bus which has almost become routine as well, but that is beside the point. Learning is normal boring but there are a couple of classes that I really enjoy and look forward to. But time is flying - I feel like Siddhartha at times because "the years [pass] by... [and I] hardly [notice] their passing" (75) .after eating lunch I go back to learning my morning classes tend to be more exciting then afternoon classes unless it a blue day because i love all my classes on blue days because they are interesting. When i get home i do all my homework then i wawtch tv and text my friends until around ten thats when i start getting tired. then i repeat this process again. I love my routine and its fairly easy. media type="custom" key="24520102"media type="custom" key="24520158"media type="custom" key="24520252"

What I love most about rivers is: You can't step in the same river twice The water's always changing, always flowing But people, I guess, can't live like that We all must pay a price To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing What's around the riverbend Waiting just around the riverbend
 * Just around the River Bend**
 * Quote from the text: **

I have always loved this song, both because it is musically soothing and creative, and because the lyrics are fun to listen to and the beat is fun to dance to.
 * Analysis: **

Your love is like a river flowing from my heart Your love is like a fire that will light my way Your love is like a rock that I am standing on Your love is like a river flowing from my heart Your love is like a fire that will light my way Your love is like a rock that I am standing on Your love is like a river flowing from my heart
 * Your love is like a River**

I'm singing in the rain Just singing in the rain What a glorious feeling I'm happy again I'm laughing at clouds So dark up above sun's in my heart And I'm ready for love For love Let the stormy clouds chase Everyone from the place Come on with the rain I've a smile on my face I'll walk down the lane With a happy refrain Singing, singing in the rain <span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana,Arial; line-height: 1.5; text-align: center;">In the rain.
 * Im Singing in the rain**