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=**Anne's Self-Realization Digital Scrapbook**=
 * This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's //Siddhartha//, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.**

=The Assignment=


 * To get a feel for how the Indian ascetics in the novel Siddhartha live we try give up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up coffee, because it's something that I love but can live without... I could maybe live without it, i just couldn't live with anyone else. **

Getting Started

 * Every morning before this project I would get a cup of coffee and sit on the couch with my parents to watch the news. Every morning I would wake up to the smell of freshly brewed coffee and it would wake me up almost immediately.When I told my dad about my project idea of giving up coffee he told me "you will grow tired" (Hesse 11). I told him it would be quite likely. I started this project on my birthday (not a bright idea on my part). I was doing really well; I had no cravings or the need for it, I just kept going with my day. On the second day it was really cold, which made me very cold. I was doing really good til this point. **



Mid-Week

 * This was the odd part of this whole experiment. I became perfectly fine. I wasn't tired, I wasn't cranky, I wasn't sore. I didn't crave coffee or even the smell of it. I **
 * was perfectly fine but "the dreams and restlessness of the soul came" (5) and I just wanted this experiment over. **

By The End

 * By the end of this my mood was a really bad roller coaster, I wasn't sleeping right, I couldn't wake up in the morning, I couldn't get through the day without snapping at someone and so on. I would sit in the auditorium alone having giant mood swings and it was just BAD!!! The last day I was sitting on the couch talking to my dad about maybe giving up and his response was, "so you will give up your project" (12) "on the last day?" and I almost replied "yes". I felt bad putting Gary (my boyfriend) through all of this and on the last night I finally snapped at him, he drove me and got me a coffee. If he could have stuck it to an IV into my arm I believe he would have. After that coffee I was pretty well fine, but that was just B.A.D!!! **

= Awakening! =


 * Siddhartha reached awakening after leaving the Buddha. He felt he needed to learn life's teachings on his own. It looked like this to me; I incorporated the yellow brick road of "Wizard of OZ" as his path of travel. "He felt that he had also left his former life behind him in the grove" (37) which is why there is a man sitting behind him that looks like the cross between Siddhartha and the Buddha. There is a one-way sign because he is "no longer looking backwards" (42) and the beauty of my AMAZINGLY drawn picture (wink wink) is because he talks of how "beautiful" (39) and "strange"(39) the world looks. **

= = =** Kamala **=
 * Name: Kamala **


 * Location: Pleasure Grove **


 * Eyes: Gray **


 * Hair: Dark brown with chocolate streaks **


 * About: I am "bright, very sweet, very clever" (51). Most people see me as just a pretty face but I am very witty. First impressions are very big in my book. **


 * Hobbies: A mistress of love. Also being "carried by four people... on red cushions" (51). Showing off what I have is what I love doing. **


 * Looking for: A man with "clothes, fine clothes, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse and presents..." (54). I want a man that will live a luxerious life with me. A man who shows the title of, man. **



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Big wheel keep on turnin' Proud Mary keep on burnin' Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river

__Cleaned a lot of plates in Memphis__ __Pumped a lot of pain down in New Orleans__ But I never saw the good side of the city 'Til I hitched a ride on a river boat queen

Big wheel keep on turnin' Proud Mary keep on burnin' Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river

If you come down to the river Bet you gonna find some people who live You don't have to worry 'cause you have no money People on the river are happy to give

Big wheel keep on turnin' Proud Mary keep on burnin' Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river

__Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river__ __Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river__ __Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river__

- Lyrics to "Proud Mary" by CCR

Just like in the song where the man leaves a good place and work for a life on the river. Siddhartha was "far from the town" (87) and " could not go back" (87) to "the life he had lived for many years was past" (87). In Proud Mary the lyrics are,Cleaned a lot of plates in Memphis, Pumped a lot of pain down in New Orleans, This is just like when Siddhartha worked all those different jobs and studied under different mentors to further his life. Then it goes on to the part where is talks about "Rollin', rollin', rollin' on the river" which can be put as when Siddhatha works as the ferry man, always " Rollin' on the river'.