NolanMSB

=Nolan's Scrapbook= This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's //Siddhartha//, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow:

To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel //Siddhartha//, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up watching TV, because it's technically not something I **need**. Technically.

Generally, I don't watch that much TV. I prefer to spend my time outdoors if I have the option to. However, when I am home and it is dark out, I tend to park myself in front of the TV and relax for a while. When I do my homework, I like having background noise, and something to keep me from getting too bored. If I don't have something else to keep me interested while I am working on homework, things tend to go downhill because I get pretty bored with it, and at that point it takes me longer to get work done because I put it off for too long. I sometimes end up daydreaming for 5-10 minutes and then when I realize that I need to work, I have thought of something better to do.

When I began this "challenge", it seemed pretty easy. I didn't really expect to feel any "need" for TV. I went about doing things as usual, and although my homework "routine" was a little thrown off, it didn't seem very different compared to what I had been doing. Instead of watching TV to keep myself entertained, I spent time browsing through the random-est things on the internet that I could find. Ultimately I ended up just going to bed when I no longer had any reason to stay up. I did end up getting more sleep when I abstained from watching TV, so that could definitely be considered a perk.

By mid week, I was beginning to not even feel a need for watching TV, which was quite the contrary to what I thought would happen. I was getting homework done earlier, getting more sleep, and not staying "parked" in front of the TV for so long. I did develop a routine of spending some time on the internet before and during homework, but still, that didn't interfere with my homework as much as getting sucked into a marathon of any show that could briefly hold my interest.

Towards the end of the week, I the thought of watching TV wasn't even mildly intriguing. I pretty much grew out of the habit in that short amount of time. I still watch TV from time to time, but it is no longer part of my daily routine. I think I experienced the opposite of what Siddhartha did, he I drew this picture because it incorporates all of the colors that Siddhartha saw in a fairly realistic way, presented as a landscape. I colored the sky orange like it is at sunset, the mountains green like the leaves on the trees that grow on them. I drew the field as yellow, like they look when all of the grasses and plants begin to die off, and the stream blue. Siddhartha saw all of these colors in a very vivid way when he looked towards the river and beyond. This is a comic strip based on what I do on a regular day of the week. My routine during a school week is very consistent and predictable. I tend to not get enough sleep and wake up feeling like crap because I stayed up too late doing homework the previous night. I usually get a ride to school with a friend, otherwise i will ride the bus. I really hate school, but it is against the law for me to not go to school, so I do. When I get home, I go straight to the fridge or pantry to find something to eat. Then I put off homework for a few hours and when I finally decide to do it, I am extremely tired. But when I do finish and go to bed, I suddenly can't fall asleep for whatever reason. And the cycle repeats....

Kamala The Courtesan

My eyes are "dark, clever, and alert" pg. 28

I have "high piled black hair" pg. 28

I live in a very pretty grove.

I am a "woman of the night" so to speak. I like to spend my time teaching inexperienced lovers how to be a good lover.

I'm a gold digger, so naturally, I tend to look for "young men....in fine clothes, in fine shoes" They must have "clothes, fine clothes, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse and presents for [me]" pg 54

River Songs

"Black Water" by the Doobie Brothers

Lyrics: Well, I built me a raft and she's ready for floatin' Ol' Mississippi, she's callin' my name Catfish are jumpin' That paddle wheel thumpin' Black water keeps rollin' on past just the same

Old black water, keep on rollin' Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me Old black water, keep on rollin' Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me Old black water, keep on rollin' Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me Yeah, keep on shinin' your light Gonna make everything, pretty mama Gonna make everything all right And I ain't got no worries 'Cause I ain't in no hurry at all

Well, if it rains, I don't care Don't make no difference to me Just take that street car thats goin' up town Yeah, I'd like to hear some funky Dixieland And dance a honky tonk And I'll be buyin' ev'rybody drinks all 'roun'

Old black water, keep on rollin' Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me Old black water, keep on rollin' Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me Old black water, keep on rollin' Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me Yeah, keep on shinin' your light Gonna make everything, everything Gonna make everything all right And I ain't got no worries 'Cause I ain't in no hurry at all

I'd like to hear some funky Dixieland Pretty mama come and take me by the hand By the hand, take me by the hand pretty mama Come and dance with your daddy all night long

"Cry Me a River" By Justin Timberlake

Lyrics: You were my sun You were my earth But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no So you took a chance And made other plans But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did, I already know, I found out from him Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me Why did you leave me, all alone Now you tell me you need me When you call me, on the phone Girl I refuse, you must have me confused With some other guy Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn To cry, cry me a river Cry me a river-er Cry me a river Cry me a river-er, yea yea

I know that they say That somethings are better left unsaid It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it (Don't act like you don't know it) All of these things people told me Keep messing with my head (Messing with my head) You should've picked honesty Then you may not have blown it (Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did, (Don't have to say, what you did) I already know, I found out from him (I already know, uh) Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be (No chance, you and me) And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me Why did you leave me, all alone (All alone) Now you tell me you need me When you call me, on the phone (When you call me on the phone) Girl I refuse, you must have me confused With some other guy (I'm not like them baby) Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn (It's your turn) To cry, cry me a river (Go on and just) Cry me a river-er (Go on and just) Cry me a river (Baby go on and just) Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Oh (Oh) The damage is done So I guess I be leaving Oh (Oh) The damage is done So I guess I be leaving Oh (Oh) The damage is done So I guess I be leaving Oh (Oh) The damage is done So I guess I be... leaving

You don't have to say, what you did, (Don't have to say, what you did) I already know, I found out from him (I already know, uh) Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be (No chance, you and me) And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river (Go on and just) Cry me a river-er (Baby go on and just) Cry me a river (You can go on and just) Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Cry me a river (Baby go on and just) Cry me a river-er (Go on and just) Cry me a river (Cause I've already cried) Cry me a river-er, yea yea (Ain't gonna cry no more, yea-yea)

Cry me a river Cry me a river, oh Cry me a river, oh Cry me a river, oh

Cry me a river, oh (Cry me, cry me) Cry me a river, oh (Cry me, cry me) Cry me a river, oh (Cry me, cry me) Cry me a river, oh (Cry me, cry me)

Cry me a river, oh (Cry me, cry me) Cry me a river, oh (Cry me, cry me) Cry me a river (Cry me, cry me)

"Oceans" By Jay Z

Lyrics: I see elephant tusk on the boar of a sailing lady Docked on the Ivory Coast Mercedes in a row winding down the road I hope my black skin don't dirt this white tuxedo Before the Basquait show and if so Well fuck it, fuck it Because this water drown my family This water mixed my blood This water tells my story This water knows it all Go ahead and spill some champagne in the water Go ahead and watch the sun blaze On the waves of the ocean

Dope boy still smelling like cocaina White boat, white robe Can he be more cleaner The oil spill that BP ain't clean up I'm anti-Santa Maria Only Christopher we acknowledge is Wallace I don't even like Washingtons in my pocket Black card go hard when I'm shopping Boat dock in front of Hermes picking cotton Silk and fleeces, lay on my Jesus Oh my God, I hope y'all don't get sea sick See me in shit you never saw If it wasn't for these pictures they wouldn't see me at all Aww, whole world in awe I crash through glass ceilings, I break through closed doors I'm on the ocean, I'm in heaven Yachting, Ocean 11

Me and Ty Ty is like Pablo and Popeye Winding dirt roads on mopeds spilling opus Welcome to the magnum opus The Magna Carta The best-selling author Decoded On the holiday playing "Strange Fruit" If I'mma make it to a billi I can't take the same route Swoosh, now that's the sound of the border Swoosh, now that's the sound of a baller Muhammad Hovi my back against the rope, the black Maybach I'm back inside the boat Shepard Fairey they finally gave me some hope Can't believe they got a nigga to vote Democrat, nope I sold dope In trouble water I had to learn how to float On the ocean, I'm in heaven Yachting, Ocean 11