TaylorMSB

= **Taylor's Scrapbook ** =

This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's //Siddhartha//, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

The Assignment
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel //Siddhartha//, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up chocolate, because it's technically not something I **need**. Technically.

== Getting Started== When i first started this (giving up chocolate) it was weird not being able to eat anything with chocolate and just choclate itself. On the first day i had the taste and thought of chocolate which made it harder to think i still had a whole week ahead of me without no chocolate. Instead i looked for a filler that was close to chocolate which was basicallly anything sweet; this barely eased the pain but got me through. "I can think, I can wait, I can fast" (p. 52).

[[image:https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSqA5HsrfhurKk7BZZG2Vx7tRM6XjXsn9jfWZWFX-eAFebcP34rBg width="178" height="80" align="left"]]Half-way there
It was now mid-week and I was starting to crave chocolate more and more i was feeling as if the chocolate was actually calling my name. Seeing everyone else in my family eating it was making it worse for me and the fact that they were eating it so freely as i sat there struggling. After dinner i almost always had a little bit of chocolate and since i already done without chocolate for the first half of the week i get in my head and keep convincing myself that i could push through for a few more days."One must find the source within one's own Self, one must possess it" (p. 5).

Final Stretch
Its the last stretch and i was feeling good knowing that very soon i could be reunited with chocolate. And at this point i wasn't even worried about having chocolate because that's how used to my body it was not to have any. Seeing my family eat it right in front of me doesn't bother me anymore either it was a breeze from this point on, of course i still had the craving but it wasn't as bad as the beginning or middle of my journey. It was over and i could now eat all the chocolate i wanted.

Analysis I choose to draw my scene the way i did becuase it explains that siddartha saw the trees mountains and river, its really trying to show all of the elements in a beautiful and peaceful way. All the colors i chose are all of the colors of each element i drew and in the sky its all of those colors combined together to show the unity of the scene. I also drew siddarthas eyes in the middle of everything because hes expierencing all of these things for the first time so its a big deal, Siddarthas eyes are the color of everything he's seeing: all of the colors.
 * The Image**


 * Quote**-"I, who wished to read the book of the world and the book of my own nature, did presume to despise the letters and signs. I called the world of appearances, illusion. I called my eyes and tongue, chance. Now it is over; I have awakened. I have indeed awakened and have only been born today."

Kamala [[image:http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Odl1ntjbjPM/Sfr9UDX2irI/AAAAAAAAAFY/XCs067TA2jg/s320/buddha3.jpg width="268" height="218" align="left"]]

 * Name**: Kamala


 * Location**:I live in a small house, in a big town


 * Eyes**:My eyes are very dark, clever, and alert


 * Hair**:High-Piled Black

About me (looks): I have a very fair, very soft, very clever face. I also have bright red lips. My eyebrows are well tended and painted in the form high arcs. Many people find me beautiful and are willing to change their personality for me. "I am still a samana," he said to himself, " still an ascetic and medicant. I cannot remain this way, this way, this way I shall be unable to enter the grove" (29).

Hobbies/Profession(actions): I practice the art of love. I spend my time teaching men what I am an expert at. A man came to me asking me for my assitance. He said to me, " And, if it does not displease you, Kamala, I would like to ask you to be my friend and instructress, for I still know nothing of the art in which you are an expert" (30). In order for a man to please me, he has to meet all my requirements, no matter how hard it is to accomplish them.

Looking for: I am looking for a man with nice clothes and shoes and tons of money. If a man asks me if he satisfys me, I will laugh and say, "No, my good man, he still does not satisfy me! He must have clothes, handsome clothes, and shoes, good-looking shoes, and a lot of money in his purse, and gifts for me" (30).

**1. Wake up**

 * 2. Shower**
 * 3. Get on the bus, and go to school**
 * 4. Once i go to to school; learn**
 * 5. Eat lunch**
 * 6. Learn more**
 * 7. Softball conditioning**
 * 8. Go home**
 * 9.Watch tv/ go on twitter**
 * 10. Homework**
 * 11. Sleep**