HollisLSB

= Hollis' Self-Realization Digital Scrapbook = This is the place where I will write about the journey I follow to self-realization. My goal is to gain wisdom and takes steps towards enlightening myself. I will be following the journey of Siddhartha, the title character of Herman Hesse's Siddhartha, as a model for my own journey. The steps I have taken follow.

= With The Samanas =

The Assignment
To get a feeling for how the Samanas, Indian ascetics that are found in the novel Siddhartha, try to reach enlightenment, we gave up something we enjoy for a week. I chose to give up one direction, because it's technically not something I need. Technically.


 *  Getting Started **

When we first had to pick something and I thought of One Direction I didn't think I could do it. I listen to there music all the time, I have their posters all around my room and I have their notebooks. I went home and took all the posters down and substituted for other notebooks. The first few days where really hard because I missed the comforts of having my room seem full and how I liked it. I really missed having the feeling of comfort I got from listening to their music and just the feeling of happiness they bring me on a daily basis. Everyone kept telling me that I wouldn't make it so my #|job was to prove to everyone that I could.

Mid-Week
I heard from my friends that a new one direction song was coming out that Friday and I didn't know if I could last the next 4 days without hearing the song. My friends where very supportive of me for the most part and didn't talk about it around me and I was very grateful to them for that! I also had to go on a college trip and I was planning on listening to the album on the way there so I had to download different music. At the same time I was sad about missing the new song it was cool to find new things that made me happy. Also ended up spending more time with my family then spending time in my room alone because my room felt empty and alone.

By The End

 The last few days I forgot I had given anything up at all. I kept going with my normal routine as usual. I put up different pictures of my family and other things I enjoy to make me feel at home again in my room. I was getting more anxious about the song because the music video was coming out a week later and I wanted to have the song memorized by that time and I had only heard the 16 second teaser that was released before I gave them up.

Awakening
 * The Quote **

What does Siddhartha's "Awakening" look like? Is this the same thing as reaching Enlightenment? In the text, Siddhartha becomes awakened to the world around him after leaving the Samanas and Gotama (the Buddha). He sees "the world for the first time. The world was beautiful strange and mysterious. Here was blue, here was yellow, here was green, sky and river, woods and mountains, all beautiful, all mysterious and enchanting, and in the midst of it, he, Siddhartha, the awakened one, on the way to himself. All this, all this yellow and blue, river and wood, passed for the first time across Siddhartha's eyes. It was no longer the magic of Mara, it was no more the veil of Maya, it was no longer meaningless and the chance diversities of the appearances of the world, despised by deep-thinking Brahmins, who scorned diversity, who sought unity. River was river, and if the One and Divine in Siddhartha secretly lived in blue and river, it was just the divine art and intention that there should be yellow and blue, there sky and wood -- and here Siddhartha. Meaning and reality were not hidden somewhere behind things, they were in them, in all of them" (39).

The Image


 I drew this picture because when I read it I pictured this scene. I picture the river being a big focal point in what he was seeing. He said he saw trees and mountains and in my mind I picture them being separate from each other because just in mind I don't think that they would mix together. So I made one way the forest and the other to the mountains. I used lots of green blue and yellow because he said he saw that as he was looking out.
 * Analysis **

= Kamala =
 * Name ** : Kamala


 * Location ** : I live in a magnificent grove just outside of town


 * Eyes ** : My eyes are dark and knowledgeable


 * Hair ** : My hair is black and flows down my back

**About Me (looks):**
I have a clever face with "bright-red lips like a newly opened fig" (pg 28). I have gorgeous dark brown eyes that almost look black.If you look at them closely you might get lost. my appearance is appealing to the men in town.

**Hobbies / Profession (actions):**
For a living, I trade physical satisfaction for nice things. I can kiss very well. "I am good at it, and so I have no lack of clothes, shoes, armbands, and every beautiful thing" (32). I am wealthy and i teach men how to treat women correctly.

**Looking For (speech, effect on others) :**
I am looking for "young men... in fine clothes, in fine shoes... scent in their hair and money in their purses"(54). They must have "clothes, fine clothes, and shoes, fine shoes, and plenty of money in his purse and presents for [me]" (54) I want a man who will give me nice things and treat me the right way.

1.sleep. 2.\check youtube. 3. Crush hard on sheep. 4. pretend to pay attention in school. 5. work on Youtube. 6. do last minute homework and projects.

The Comic

Analysis my life is pretty much a cycle. It repeats itself everyday. I wake up everyday not wanting to wake up and usually still tired. I always check my phone and YouTube after I finish getting ready for the day. I always hope YouTube is working or there will be new videos uploaded to watch and when there is it makes me extremely happy. Also on Red Days I get to see my crush and we get to know each other and become even better friends. A lot of time in school i don't understand why we need to learn stuff and the information goes in one ear and out the other. After school i work on my YouTube channels and talk to my best friends because I am working on not using technology during school hours. I also wait to do my homework last minute and dont really think about how they can affect my sleeping schedule an my overall grades

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Now you say you're lonely

You cry the whole night through

Well, you can cry me a river, cry me a river

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I cried a river over you

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">And now you say you love me

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Well, just to prove that you do

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Why don't you cry me a river, cry me a river?

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">'Cause I cried a river over you, over you

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">I cried a river, now you can too

<span style="color: #474747; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 15px;">Cry me a river, cry me a river Quote "In his heart he heard the newly awakened voice speak, and it said to him: "Love this river, stay by it, learn from it." Yes, he wanted to learn from it, he wanted to listen to it. It seemed to him that whoever understood this river and its secrets, would understand much more, many secrets, all secrets" (101).

Analysis This quote corresponds with the song in the way that love and the river go together. In the quote it means loving the river and learning from it but in the song the river is built by broken love. In the book the river was Sidhartha's home away from home. He would always come back to the river when he needed something or just wanted to see something familiar.

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Many rivers to cross But I can't seem to find my way over Wandering I am lost As I travel along the white cliffs of dover

Many rivers to cross And it's only my will that keeps me alive I've been licked, washed up for years And I merely survive because of my pride

And this loneliness won't leave me alone It's such a drag to be on your own My woman left me and she didn't say why Well, I guess I'll have to cry

Quote "Siddhartha reached the long river in the wood, the same river across which a ferryman had once taken him when he was still a young man and had come from Gotama's town. He stopped on this river and stood hesitatingly on the bank... Why should he go any further, where, and for what purpose?"

Analysis I think in a way that this relates to each other in a way. Siddhartha crosses only one river that he comes back to every time he is in trouble or just wants some peace and to rethink what he is doing. In the song the guy travels through many rivers looking for something which could be enlightenment media type="custom" key="24685080"

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #676767; display: block; font-family: Georgia,'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 14px;"> The river flows It flows to the sea Wherever that river goes That's where I want to be Flow river flow Let your waters wash down Take me from this road To some other town

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